Tuesday, August 12, 2008

Dear Granna,

I had an interesting dream last night. The person I was walking with I couldn’t quite recognize but I felt comfortable talking to her. She almost looked like Mom, but at the same time she didn’t. This person was telling me how proud she was of me of just taking out the trash and moving on to the next guy every time I felt like it wasn’t worth it. That I wasn’t taking it personally when something hurt me or didn’t work out and that I was staying strong. In my dream I laughed and said I was a grade-a piece of ass and that I could afford to be picky and just keep moving on to the next guy, and the right one would appreciate me the way I deserve to be appreciated.

It is a good mentality to have, I think. To just shrug things off as life experience and just keep moving forward, instead of staying in one place and floundering in the pain or the hurt. It’s not worth it. The people that hurt me are not worth the energy it takes for me to still think about them and be hurt about them. I am really embracing my strength as of late because it is my strength that makes me beautiful. And it is my strength that makes me who I am. I think for too long I pretended to be weak so that I would attract a strong mate, but I don’t want to pretend anymore. I don’t want to be who I am not.

I think that is what I am supposed to be learning right now…to just keep moving forward. Life will deal you a poor hand every now and again, but there is no reason to dwell on it. Toss the cards and get dealt a new hand, right? Just need to stay strong and keep my chin up and exude the Leo glow that I’ve always had buried inside me.

Kim