Monday, January 26, 2009

Dear Granna,

We run hot and cold. Some days he is very affectionate, some days he shuts me out. Saturday was a hot day, Sunday was a cold day. I talked to him Friday night about his actions, and he said he had just been feeling very unattractive lately, that it wasn't me... he just feels bad about himself. Hopefully he will understand that it is not all physical for me, that I do enjoy his company... But that is something he is going to have to get through on his own.

We did go out on Saturday and have a good time, and he is very thankful for that...so hopefully he will start feeling a little better now.

Granted, I think he should be the last thing I need to worry about at this point. School starts up again today, I'm starting training for my marathon...I'm trying to get things squared away for law school... worrying about starting/maintaining a relationship with someone who I have no idea what he is feeling... Have to get my priorities straight.

I signed up to take the LSAT again in September. That gives me some time over the summer to study for it, and then my scores will be released before the end of the year, so I can start applying in October/November. I know I said one of my goals this year was to get into law school, but I don't know if I will be accepted or not until 2010 I'm sure. I guess we'll see, at least I'll start getting those applications out there! I have to still ask my attorneys for letters...I feel nervous about it, but at the same time, I have given them a year and a half of my life, the least they could do is say that I am a good employee, and I will be a great attorney. I mean, they can lie if they want, I just need the pull of their names and the firm.

This is my future, I hope they can help me obtain it.

Kim