Monday, February 23, 2009

Dear Granna,

My weekend was amazing. It is funny how things turn out that way. Ever since I grasped my "letting go" attitude, things have been going pretty well. While it was on the agenda, Kyle and I spent the majority of the weekend together, when originally we were just supposed to spend Friday night together. His sister was going to pick him up on Saturday morning to go do some family thing and she didn't show up until late in the afternoon. I originally was going to leave in the morning when he got picked up, but instead I stayed and waited for his sister to show up. When she showed up she was excited to see me and asked Kyle why he didn't just have me bring him up (which I had been offering the entire time)? Then we ganged up on Kyle and asked him if I could go, and it ended up being a pretty fun time. I enjoy spending time with his family... they are a very swell bunch, and his sister is crazy like I am. It also gets me in a little deeper, so maybe once they start putting the pressure on him, he'll see how wonderful I am!

But I highly doubt it! He's Kyle, after all, stubborn until the end.

Regardless, it was fun. I got to have some good laughs and sit in a jacuzzi, and make googly eyes at Kyle in front of his family and embarass him. His Mom embarassed me, though, and asked me what was "growing out of your ass?" when she saw my tattoo. I got so red that Kyle started getting red, but we all laughed at my expense and it was fun. We drove home that night (only to discover the doors were locked and I had to break into the house through Kyle's window and scare the shit out of his roommates) and, although we were both exhsausted from the previous nights entertainment... Kyle was "in the mood" (I'll take it whenever I can because it is few and far between these days!). But it was different. Different than normal, wham, bam, thank-you ma'am like we usually have. This was slow and gentle and patient. He was more worried about my needs than his own. It was like an exploration of both of our bodies together again, like two new lovers figuring out what makes them tick. We connected in a deeper level then just the physical pleasure. It was...nice. Just to feel sexy and wanted and cared about. It was just what I needed to put a little pep in my step.

Sunday we slept until one, got up and went to get something to eat, then said a quick goodbye around 3:00 and I went to go do some research. Haven't heard from him since, but, I imagine I will be seeing him again this weekend... We're just having fun and whatever happens, happens. Like Nadia has been teaching me, I'm going to embrace the now and be happy with what I have now and not worry about the future as much, it only leads to disappointment.

It just feels good to have that sort of freedom.

Though, I was a naughty puppy and I didn't do any of my running this weekend, and I'm going to pay for it this week...but my legs feel like they have been running for days, so, I don't know what is up with that. I drank a protein shake for breakfast in hopes that it will help, so we'll see how I feel this afternoon.

All-in-all... it was a wonderful weekend full of love, laughter and family. I wouldn't trade it for the world.

Kim