Friday, November 30, 2007

Dear Granna,

Last night I signed a one year lease on my dream apartment. It is such a relief to have found a place I can call my own. I am going to move in the middle of the month. The only scary thing is packing and moving, but being in a new place is exciting! I can't wait to decorate and start buying matching furniture. I think I might stay in this place for a while. A year at least! If not longer. That way I have a place to live while I'm finishing up my Paralegal Certification. And if I get into Law School in San Diego, then I'll still have a good place to live. Look at me, I'm already thinking it is going to be a great place. What if there is a problem? I don't think there will be...but I get worried. My sister keeps telling me about all the crimes that happen in the area, but at the same time...there is crime everywhere anyway, I just have to make sure I am not a victim.

Coming up with the money for a deposit was fun. I had to put it on two different credit cards, but once I get the deposit back from my current place, I should be able to pay off the debt. Also will be getting some good money back from tax time, and supposedly I get a Christmas bonus, so it will all work out in the end. Hopefully I will be able to pull together enough money to get everyone little Christmas gifts, though I have to admit, I am going to miss your gift to me this year. You always gave me the best stuff. Another year without you is not any easier. Mom is going to be out of town too, so I am going to spend it with some friends, it is just not the same. It seems like Mom has been copping out of holidays with us for as long as I can remember. Even when we were little she sent us to Dad's house so she could go elsewhere. Will she ever come around and actually want to be with us on the holidays? My therapist says I have to stop wanting her to be a Mom and just realize that is who she is. Doesn't make it any easier now. It's why I miss you so much. You filled that Mom void...

I better get back to work.

Kim