Dear Granna,
I am having one of those moments where I am asking myself "What the hell am I doing here?" While I know I said I was going to try to enjoy each day as it comes, and not worry about the future, but at the same time, don't I deserve to know what is going to happen? Don't I deserve to know how someone is feeling?
Maybe I'm just scared of the truth. Maybe I make excuses for him so that I don't have to see the reality of it all. Or maybe I just need to stay positive, stay the course, and things will turn out the way I want them to. It is the not knowing that is killing me. I suppose that is part of the adventure, never knowing which was is up, and where we are going.
I am trying to fight the butterflies, trying to fight the insecurity, trying to fight the paranoia, and just be happy. Sometimes it is just hard.
If I am still in the realm of not-knowing in a couple months, there is going to be a talk.
Kim
Subscribe to:
Post Comments (Atom)
No comments:
Post a Comment