Wednesday, March 25, 2009

Dear Granna,

Surviving the week to the best of my ability. Earlier I signed up for the Big Brothers Big Sisters organization. Hopefully I will be able to volunteer and change someone's life. I have so much love to give, and can be such a big inspiration and deliver good guidance, why not help change someone's life and give them hope? I am anxiously awaiting some good news from them.

This weekend I will be visiting my family (which is long overdue). It is good to know they will always be there for me when I need them, and even when I am gone for long periods of time, they welcome me back with open arms. I am so blessed. When I get wrapped up in certain aspects of my life I tend to just forget about them. I wont let myself do that anymore. My family is way too important to me. They help keep me strong and on the right track.

Aside from that...I am just trying to heal...doing my best to repair the damage that has been done to me over the many, many years of poor decisions. It is going to take a long time to be able to trust and love again, but I have to love me first, and I will get there. In the meantime I will distract myself with activities and projects and help myself grow as a person with all of the good things I am trying to do.

And today was Day One of quitting smoking -- for good this time. I really need to focus on a healthy, long life. We never know how much time we have remaining in this world, but the time we do have we may as well be healthy and try to extend it as much as possible, right?

Kim